Thursday, December 4, 2008

What is my problem?

I read a lot of blogs on a wide variety of topics. Of course, the humorous ones are my favorites because who doesn't enjoy a nice, lighthearted read. But I find there is one kind of blog that I just don't like to read. And I don't like that I don't like to read them. And I don't know why I don't like to read them. And I try to make myself like to read them.

Deep breath...confession time. I don't like to read devotional, preachy blogs. And there are a million of them out there.

I know. I'm a complete heathen.
But that's just it. I'm not a heathen. God IS my existence. There is no life for me apart from God. I want others to love God too. So what is the freaking deal? It really bugs me. Possible reasons?

  1. Been there, done that. Booorriing-I hope that's not the reason. God by His very nature is fresh and eternally creating and creative.

  2. I'm emotionally stunted and don't want to share the deepest parts of myself, much less hear that from other people - Wow. Hope that's not it for obvious reasons.
  3. Most of what I read doesn't speak to where I am - possible, maybe, hmmm.

I don't know why it matters. It just makes me think there's something wrong with me. Oh, wait. Maybe it's somehow related to my dislike of makeup/plastic storage container/jewelery parties, women's retreats, mother-daughter-hat-wearing teas. I'm just not a joiner. Maybe that's it! I'm not a joiner. I don't follow well. I don't do groupie things.

Ah well, I'm done with tonight's self-obsessive analysis. I delight in hearing from and being with my friends and precious family members. And to say I love God doesn't do that relationship justice. So I guess that's what really matters.




6 comments:

Stephen said...

Nah, I think you just have a low tolerance for B.S. But then you've been married to Mark all these years...

Mark said...

HUH???

Shari said...

To me there's nothing ladylike and polite about the Bible and life in Christ. You've seen the redeeming, rescuing, bring you back from the dead kind of love we have in Jesus by experience, and so have I. How I see myself in the mirror of scripture is not pretty either, so it just feels odd to dress it all up in hats and frilly clothes and call it a Bible study. Just my opinion, you know. My favorite ladies retreats were the ones where I got to hold on tight to a sister who had come suddenly face to face with the power of the Holy Spirit, and cry with her as the old scars were ripped open by the Word and healed by the Word. It's hard to hold on to the mascara in those moments!

Now, on the other hand, if the plan for the evening is dressing up and having a good time with the girls, I'm definitely in!

Anonymous said...

I think I understand where you are coming from, but I, on the other hand, am just the opposite. I think my blog is the kind you hate to read... ha ha.

I LOVE to talk about the things that God is doing in my life and I LOVE to share it with others, but the problem is: I am not much of a talker. I LOVE to write and I think I express my heart so much better if I can write it down. I also truly enjoy seeing other women encouraged in their walk with Jesus and this is the way I feel like I can encourage people. I think when we take the time to share what God is showing us, we are allowing others to see that God works in the everyday lives of people. I definitely don't mean to be preachy or pushy.. I just want to share with the people I love so much. :)

Cari said...

Fishy-I don't think I've read your blog. I should do it! I doubt if I would hate it if it comes from your heart!

CyndiAKADisneyqueen said...

Cari you and my mom would get along great. Well, except she does like her make-up. But she has never understood my need for group activity (lol).